Lol ops it alright I spell everything wrong :p
I should stop saying days and just say a number… 3
So I found out another thing I need work on is keeping my word cause that may come in handy in life some would think. My day today started off pretty great I was happy and focussing in my classes and late to in but i was just really content with myself. I get home around five thirty and say hello to my dogs and running to go to that bathroom at the same time, it was pretty hard cause I either kick then or almost step on there lil cute heads as they swarm my feet the hole way to the bathroom. I finished my business with my dogs still intact I despise to take a break and watch some tv but I can’t just watch tv I all ways have to do something ells so I began to sing dream a little dream of me witch is good practice cause I will be singing it at my ants show on the 6th of March kinda happy and scared about that : / .
So when the day was good it had to be interrupted but my cousin yell at me saying my school called and when I hear that I get confused and walk up stars my dad see me and tell me to come to him and explains what he heard on the phone and then told me to explain but kept on interrupting and yelling at me repeating the day shit he said the first time he did the about five time me like anyone there gonna get aggravated so I start getting angry and he starts yelling more and the I start freaking out we go back and forth and I explain my self tell him if he was so stubborn and decided to listen to someone for once we would of been done with the conversation twenty minutes ago and stormed back done starts where I was last happy. I just noticed I completely for go to say why the school called well it called to say I was skipping -.- when all i came close to missing a class was being ten minutes late to one and the teacher must of never marked me there and its not the first time he’s done that it’s getting really annoying the called four time and there been a fight every time I’m getting so annoyed after I finish my last page of homework my parents think I never do I’m going to sleep well it was nice of you to let me rant and also and update on my rut situation it getting better I’m liking thus feeling of doing something new every day :) but yeah tired here good night :)
LOL I love going throw my photo album and seeing stupid pictures of myself.
Day 2 of get off your ass and do something with your like :)
So today I woke up and walked my dog eat and went to school did a quiz taught grade 9 12 an 8 count found a song to work on that I would record in three day ever one better watch it I wanna get at least a thousand views and hopefully every three day I will record a new song or maybe like ever um wednesday I don’t know I did not warm up my voice train my voice witch I need to get on and I also hate my drama class it mind numbing and we being working on it for about 6 months now and we haven’t really gotten anywhere I’m just hate going I would rather take dance class my friend been begging me to go to with him I would love to go and I’m pretty sure I’m going tomorrow woot and yeah don’t know what to say good bye :)
You treat the air as a canvas and the paint is the chords that come through your fingers, out of the keyboard.
- pharrell
What the hell am I doing…?
I need to get out of this very deep rut I dug myself in to and came so confutable with cause if I continue in this life draining circle I will be living with my parents it’ll I’m the age 25 as I see it and to me that won’t do. Lately I’ve Been coming out of my useless circle but end up only make it wider cause I will always come back to the route I was trying to get away from. I have talent so why and I scared to should it? I even tell people oh I sing, dance, draw but I always come up with an excuse it not show my work by saying “well I’m actually now that good ill show you when I get better” lol pshhh get better the funny think with me is I do want to get better then I try for a little and get side tract and never go back to it, I would even say things like ” oh I suck at it your way better like it would be embarrassing if I showed you” like what the hell I know and been tole I have some much potential to be great and go far in singing, dancing and art and here I am not even really trying to advance in any one or then when I have the time to work on all three or my talents. It’s said that I have to watch my self do this and I don’t know why but it so hard for me to get out of these bad habits even tho I have a very aspirating family with should make me want to do it more yet I still have this stupid thing on my head that wants me to pretend I’m all ready good and that I don’t need anyone’s help with I need a lot of help all I have it the base to something great and just need to allow to be pushed and guided to do it.
If anyone reads this sorry if it horrible grammar and spelling I just wrote this cause I tired of want I’m doing and I hope me beginning to do daily logs on my tumblr will help me change my loser mentalities and move on to a path and out of this useless rut.
“Oh, I have gobs and gobs of ideas, but… well, you dream things like that, and that’s what these are, you know—my day dreams.” - Ella figeraled
(day one)
REBLOG AND CLICK THE PICTURE
TRY TYPING YOUR NAME, TUMBLR URL, ETC.
This is so much fun.
I LOVE THIS.
